prayers for Mom -mom

I had my second dose of Taxol and my third herceptin. I am exhausted and a little shakey kn my feet. My good friend April took me to chemo! Bonnie came to the house to sit with my younger babies. I have such amazing people in my life. So kind and so caring. My dear friend, allison, is flying home tomorrow. Allison, I miss you! Have a safe flight tomorrow! It pains me that I am unable to visit mom-mom, Josh's grandmother,(she is in the icu). I would whisper little prayers in her ears. I would tell her everything is ok. I would hold her hand to comfort her. Mom-mom is a strong woman. Lord knows I need prayers for healing. But i would like to ask you to pray for mom-mom. Many of you may not know her, but each time you think of me and my battles that I face, please say a prayer for mom-mom. She was able to help with my kids and they love her dearly. . All of this happened so quickly and she is having a hard time dealing with the "why?". She has always been in excellent health. Please pray for comfort. Mom-mom is now on comfort care. Please keep her family in your prayers as well. Her children have had to explain the severity of her disease, vasculitis, to her and how it has affected her body. Pray for comfort for this family. Romans 12:12 New International Version (NIV) 12 Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. This is a song that what we sang at church yesterday. I thought it was comforting. If I could be by mom-moms side I would sing this to her and hope it would comfort her as much as it did me. http://m.youtube.com/?reload=7&rdm=mdt4cb70c#/watch?v=MzDGvDZxnuw (you may have to copy and paste) MOM-MOM WE LOVE YOU!

Happy Thanksgiving

Today is a day that brings so many wonderful memories from my childhood. As a young girl, I would wake up to the smell of turkey in the oven, stuffing and other wonderful smells. Some of my favorite desserts momma would make were banana pudding and chocolate pie. We all would rush through breakfast so we could watch the "Macy's Day Parade "! Today all but one of my girls (sadie is still sleeping) are sitting here with me, anxiously awaiting the start of the "Macy's Day Parade" (yes, we live near Philly but still carry on the tradition from my childhood and watch the "Macy's Day Parade"). As momma would say, it is the only "real" parade worth watching. Last night, we all gathered around the kitchen table and carried on another tradition. We made Granny's banana pudding! As I watched my girls, I couldn't help but think of how blessed I am to have such sweet babies of my own and a sweet step-daughter. So, allow me to say what I am thankful for. I am so thankful for my parents. They gave me a loving happy home. I am thankful for all my siblings. They make me laugh when I am down. There is nothing better than the bond between a brother or sister. I am thankful for my healthy children. I am thankful for my sweet Faith Anne(thank you Amanda, for allowing her to spend the past week with us). I am thankful for all my friends and family who have given up their time to take care of me and my children when my medicine does not allow me to. I am so very thankful for all the doctors and nurses who have taken care of me. I have been so blessed with such caring people. As you go about your day, remember all you have to be thankful for. It is much easier to focus on the negative. But, today is about ALL that you do have. Happy Thanksgiving!

New Medicine

Well, I had my new medicine (taxol and herceptin) on Thursday. I was there from 9:30 until after 4 pm. I can't complain., though, because I slept almost the whole time. :) so far I have handled it pretty well. I always get super nervous and tend to overthink things when I start a new medicine. The new chemo medicine makes me very tired. The other changes are my fingers are sensitive and my legs hurt. It makes it very hard to walk. Wednesday, I had my port taken out. My echo cardiogram showed a blood clot on the end. Thank you to my dear friend April for going with me and holding my hand. I was awake for the whole thing. But April was there to keep me calm. So happy to have that out. I am so thankful for a great medical team that stays on top of things.

Broken Heart.

While lying in bed, I heard Noelle sass her grandmother. Why didn't j get up and correct her, you ask? Two reasons. One, her grandmother was handling it and two, Willow was sleeping soundly beside me. As I listened to Noelle disrespect her grandmother, the more I became upset. I wanted to run upstairs and put her over my knee (yes. I do believe in spanking, not beating, my children.). But I knew I needed to let her grandmother handle it. Noelle needs to learn respect for other adults. Her grandmother kept asking "Why are you acting like this?" Which Noelle replied, in a very disrespectful tone "I don't know!" They went back and forth for about five minutes. Finally, Noelle gave an answer. One that broke my heart. "Because, I don't want my mommy to have cancer! I want her to get better! I don't like that she is sick and can't do all the fun things anymore! That did it for me I broke down and cried. I held willow sleeping so peacefully next to me. This is not fair! My babies should not have to bear this. It is so hard to be strong when your baby's heart is breaking.