Chemo day!

I always get anxious the night before chemo. I worry that my numbers will be to low and I won't be able to have chemo. I worry about my children. Are they feeling neglected because i am unable to care for them and hug them? I worry about the medicine that I get, the side effects. As long as my numbers are ok,I will be receiving my last dose of the cytoxan and adriamycin! These two medicines really knock me off my feet for at least a week. But hey, by God's grace I have made it through these first two medicines. As long as everything goes well today, I will be starting my next two medicines,, taxol and herceptin, in a few weeks! Wish me luck today and of course please pray!